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06 May 2004 @ 04:24 am
Change of plans...  
...I guess I'm taking my Series 24 exam on the 12th instead of the 17th! :O The testing center called back and said there was a mix up and they thought they could fit me in on the 17th, but the testing window was too small. :P Unfortunately there's some sort of HUGE accounting test going on right now that everyone is taking and the center is booked until June. :P The only time they could re-schedule me for is the 12th -- which means that I have today until my test date off to study. It's a little too soon and I'm not sure if I'll be ready by then! :P

Sydney will be happy that I'm home. She loves snuggling up to me when I study on the couch and we get really attached to each other (more than normal) when I have my little study days off at home. It just seems to make it harder on the both of us when I have to go back to work after my exam and I have to leave her at home all alone again. :(

And I had an interesting dream about my Dad last night. For those who don't know, he passed away (rather suddenly from an illness) when I was 21. In my dream, I knew he was ill and I was talking to him about things that were currently happening in my life. He was telling me that Mark was a good man and that he'd take care of me - which really made me sad when I woke up because he's never gotten the chance to meet Mark, or see me graduate from college (which he worked so hard to put me through), or attend my wedding... I'm not sure what it was about last night that had me thinking so much about him. It's been 13 years since he's been gone and some would think - with all this time that's passed - it would have gotten easier for me to deal with him being gone, but it really hasn't.

I don't mean to depress everyone so early in the morning! :P I'd better get back to studying - I have a lot of ground to cover in a VERY short time! I apologize in advance if I'm not able to be around LJ too much in the next few days...
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ajayne on May 6th, 2004 08:20 am (UTC)
You know, this may sound weird because I don't know if you believe in things like these, but perhaps that was a way for your dad to come to you and let you know that he knows that Mark is a good man and will take care of you. I hear that those who we loved and love us still watch over us and see *everything* we do. I am not really obsessed with these things, but I think there is some validity to them. Ya know?

Best of luck with your studying for the test, I know you will do well.
Carecareleswhisper on May 6th, 2004 09:56 am (UTC)
Your dad must approve of Mark. :) I have dreams about my grandma sometimes. I had one that she approved of Roger. It made me happy, yet sad. And just because it's been 13 years doesn't mean it has to be easier to deal with Sheri. I don't know if it ever gets easier. I'm not trying to upset you, I'm just trying to let you know that it's ok for you to feel the way you do. *hugs*

Good luck w/all that studying you have to do. :)
karmastyx: Brock made by careleswhisperkarmastyx on May 6th, 2004 02:36 pm (UTC)
I agree with my sister about your dream, and things becoming easier. It's okay to feel however you want. Nobody has the right to tell you how to feel. Just remember that. HUGS!

Happy studying!
Smithasmittenbyu on May 6th, 2004 06:25 pm (UTC)
I agree with your friends' interpretation of your dream. In the end though, it's yours and it shows how much love you have for your father.

I do feel that those we love do watch over us even after their passing.

Good luck in your exam! Study hard and you will do just fine! :)
WE ALL NEED A SENSE OF HUMORbeam861 on May 7th, 2004 06:00 am (UTC)
Good Luck with all of your studying, as least having Syd around makes it a little more pleasant! Just because some-
one has been gone a long time, doesn't mean you miss them any less. I think we just push them out of the way so we can go on with our lives. I agree with your friends. I have had "dreams" where people that I have been close to that have died have talked to me. It is a great feeling, yet a little strange too.