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26 October 2004 @ 11:58 pm
Work thoughts. :P  
Today was one of those days that I just really hated my job. I hate being the bad guy - and my position as a compliance person makes me the one who has to "police" our reps on a day to day basis. Generally I love my job because I love the paperwork and I genuinely like and get along with all of our reps. But today... I had to reprimand a couple of our reps and I hate doing that. They were pretty upset with me and made a few snide remarks because I wouldn't approve their trades, and because I had to write both of them up for not following procedures. :P I couldn't help but take it a little personal (which I know I shouldn't do.) A little tiny part of me today thought that maybe I was a little too thin-skinned for my job and that maybe I'm not really cut out for it.

Oddly enough, tomorrow I'm meeting with my old boss' new branch manager about another job offer. They're looking for an Assistant Branch Manager at my old boss' new company and he suggested me for the job. I've known about it for a while, but have been trying for the past few days to sort out my thoughts about it - which is why I haven't written about it yet. :P This, unlike the previous job offer is not a step backward for me, in fact, it would be a great opportunity for me to move up. The pay is VERY comparable to what I'm making now and I have all the qualifications for the job...

At first, I turned down my old boss, saying I was happy where I was (as I had done for the other job before). I love my office-mates and work is actually a joy to go to (usually) and I wouldn't give that up for anything. But the more I thought about it, the more I thought that if I didn't at least go and see what the other job has to offer, I'd always wonder. I think I, at least, owe it to myself to see exactly what the job is about before I dismiss it completely,... don't you think?

Well, that's been my rationale behind my meeting tomorrow. :P I feel a little guilty because no one at work knows about it and I feel like I'm betraying them, in a way, by even thinking about this. :P But after the day I had today, I couldn't help but wonder if staying is such a good idea - maybe I'm just not cut out to be the compliance police?

In any case, it's why I haven't been sleeping too well lately and why all my recent entries seem to be void of any sort of emotion - this has been on my mind for quite some time. :P I'm still highly confused about the whole thing (and still feeling guilty about the meeting tomorrow) - hopefully after tomorrow things will be a bit more clear for me. :P

Hope you all have a nice evening. I'll have to update about the Lea Salonga concert tomorrow - I'm just too exhausted to do it tonight. :P
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Sheri: Sheri - yahoo iconshutterbug93 on October 27th, 2004 09:28 pm (UTC)
Haha! I guess I'm pretty odd, but I like tedious things like paperwork. :P

I agree, I'm glad I did look in to the other job. Thanks for your comments. :)
Expresso Maniac: Trick-or-treatexpressomaniac on October 27th, 2004 05:30 am (UTC)
yes check out the other job..it can't hurt :)
looking forward to reading about the meeting!
paperwork is ok..depending on what sort it is :-P
Sheri: Sheri - yahoo iconshutterbug93 on October 27th, 2004 09:29 pm (UTC)
I agree, I think that I'll always wonder about it if I don't at least go and find out about it. :)

And I guess you're right, depending on what kind of paperwork it is - will definitely determine my enjoyment. :)
kenna_clairkenna_clair on October 27th, 2004 05:32 am (UTC)
Although I think it's good to find out what opportunities are out there, one thing you should always keep in mind: make sure your career move is TOWARD something and not AWAY from something. It's a good advice someone told me a long time ago.

In other words, if the other job sounds decent and you're inclined to take it, make sure you're taking it because it's what you're looking for and not because you're trying to get away from some negative aspects of the current job. Because, unfortunately, most jobs have some negative aspect to it. Good luck with your meeting!
Sheri: Sheri - yahoo iconshutterbug93 on October 27th, 2004 09:33 pm (UTC)
Thank you SO much for your comments! :) I definitely agree with you that that most jobs do have negative aspects and now that I know what the job is more about, I can make a better educated decision. Thanks for your great advice! :)
ajayne on October 27th, 2004 08:04 am (UTC)
Good luck with the meeting with your old boss! I am glad that you are going to check out the offer though. :)

I am thin skinned as well and take things somewhat personally when I know I shouldn't. It is unavoidable. That is just who I am. I think that is who you are too. ;)
Sheri: Sheri - yahoo iconshutterbug93 on October 27th, 2004 09:36 pm (UTC)
Thanks Andrea! :) I'm glad that I went and now hopefully I'll be better able to come to a decision. :P

I don't think you're thin-skinned at all. I do think that you care a lot about people and it hurts you (as it does me) when people say harsh things to you. :(
ajayne on October 28th, 2004 07:48 am (UTC)
Thank you Sheri! :) Your take sounds a bit right. ;) I think we are very similar in that aspect.

Glad to hear your meeting went well and you should bemore able to make a good decision for you. ;)
With a sparkconchispa on October 27th, 2004 08:29 am (UTC)
My 2 cents
Good luck on the job interview! You are right that it's a good thing to check it out and see if it will be a good move for you.

As far as your situation, reprimanding people is never pleasant, I can't imagine it ever being easy. And even if you are thin-skinned it does not mean that you are not cut out for the job. With enough time and practice you may find it a little easier, in a sense that you won't take it so personally.
Sheri: Sheri - yahoo iconshutterbug93 on October 27th, 2004 09:51 pm (UTC)
Re: My 2 cents
Thanks so much! :)

I think that the comments from the reps bother me because I care a little too much about them. I hope that in time it gets easier. :)
Smithasmittenbyu on October 27th, 2004 08:57 am (UTC)
All the best, Sheri...I think it is good to at least check it out like you said.

I do enjoy paperwork...that's needed...not the unnecessary kind! ;)

As for reprimanding... look at it as constructive criticism. You are only helping to keep the bank on track. It's not easy, but sometimes need to be done! Like you I have very tough time being the compliance police. But I have slowly come to the grips with it. But i don't think I would ever get comfortable with it either.
Sheri: Sheri - yahoo iconshutterbug93 on October 27th, 2004 11:37 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much, Smitha! :)

I hate reprimanding the reps. They're really a great group and have good hearts, but my job is such that I have to deal with them not following procedures all the time. :P
Care: laura's chubby handscareleswhisper on October 27th, 2004 10:14 am (UTC)
I think it's great that you're going to check out that job. Just remember to only take it if you want it. And don't feel guilty about it. :)

I remember the time I gave up a job I had for two years for what I thought was a better job. Well, needless to say it wasn't better and I didn't stick around. I kicked myself for giving up my old job. Just a little story I thought I'd share. Not trying to persuade you in any way. :)

Good luck. :D
Sheri: Sheri - yahoo iconshutterbug93 on October 27th, 2004 11:39 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Carrie. :) I think it is good that I went to find out more information about it, hopefully it will aide me in my decision-making. :)

I'm sorry to hear that you left a job that you loved for another job. :( I know that I'll make the right decision - I just don't know what that decision is right now. :P
Sabinesabine10 on October 27th, 2004 04:37 pm (UTC)
To me, you should go and see what they offer to you. That does not mean that I think that you are not cut out for your current job, and I understand your feelings in regard to feel guilty (I also feel this way by even thinking about to look for an other job) but it's your life and so you should try to think of yourself, too.

All the best Sheri - and I really would like to hear about your meeting.

*Hugs* you tight
Sheri: Sheri - yahoo iconshutterbug93 on October 27th, 2004 11:41 pm (UTC)
Thanks for the hugs and the great advice, Sabine. :) I'm really glad that I went to that meeting. I'm still unsure about what to do about it, but at least now I have more information to make my choice.

Kananigirl: chiffonwingskananigirl on October 27th, 2004 04:45 pm (UTC)

I agree you should check into the job if you're wondering about it. I don't think it would hurt to take some time to think about it and look into it.

Oooooh I wanna hear about the Lea concert. ::sigh:: I wish I could have gone.
Sheri: Kevin 2003 headshotshutterbug93 on October 27th, 2004 11:42 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Rayna! :)

And you should have gone to the Lea concert! :) But I'll post more about that tonight. :)
Rachelreelcowgirl on October 27th, 2004 04:57 pm (UTC)
I think that you should go and check out the job even if you don't think that you'll take it. You're right; you'll always wonder about it if you don't. But if you go and you realize that it's something that you would really not enjoy doing, you'll probably feel it immediately. I'm one of those people who has to be completely convinced before I do something, and a lot of times if I am wavering, I know there must be a reason for it. It usually works out for the better that way.

Anywho, *hugs*!
Sheri: Sheri - yahoo iconshutterbug93 on October 27th, 2004 11:43 pm (UTC)
I feel the same way that you do, Rachel. :) I'm thinking there must be a reason that I'm undecided, even now. :P I still haven't made up my mind, but at least now I have all the information that I need to make an informed decision. :)

Thanks so much for your comment. :) *HUGS*
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Sheri: Sheri - yahoo iconshutterbug93 on October 27th, 2004 11:45 pm (UTC)
Awww, thanks Kristen! :) I think, whatever I eventually decide to do, I'm glad that I went to the meeting today to find out more about the job. :) And true enough, paperwork is okay but it does depend on the type. :) *HUGS* to you too!
karenwakedistracted on October 27th, 2004 06:16 pm (UTC)
Good luck at the meeting...I'm sure everything will end up working out the way it is meant to. I hope you are feeling better soon. I know how you feel - I often get worked up about stuff at work, and I know how it just sits on your mind until it is resolved. Good luck with everything! :)
Sheri: Sheri - yahoo iconshutterbug93 on October 27th, 2004 11:46 pm (UTC)
Thank you, Karen! :) And I constantly feel that way about work (I can't help but bring my work anxiety home with me) :P Thanks so much for the luck! :)
karmastyx: Brock made by careleswhisperkarmastyx on October 27th, 2004 08:06 pm (UTC)
As everyone else is saying... it's not a bad idea to just check out the offer. No matter what you decide, just make sure it's for the right reasons not the wrong ones. Good luck with whatever you decide.
Sheri: Sheri - yahoo iconshutterbug93 on October 27th, 2004 11:47 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much for your comment, Laura! :) And for the luck - I'm really going to have to mull my decision over these next few days. :P