Granted, the weekend is far from over and the true test will obviously be tomorrow, but I was feeling much less moody after reading all your comments and I was actually able to enjoy myself at my cousin's daughter's wedding today with my mother (I went as her "date") and I even smiled politely when one of my relatives asked my Mom why she wasn't re-married by now... Then my Mom and I went to Punchbowl Cemetery and left some flowers for my Dad. It was nice to go there with my Mom, because although Mark means well, sometimes I'm not sure if he fully understands...
When I got home he asked me how my Dad was and I said, "Still there" (in a very joking tone - I know, I was being a smart ass, but he laughed...) I sometimes feel that I have to make little flippant remarks to others because I have a hard time letting on how depressed I really am. And there are still others who don't understand why it's so hard - "It's been 14 years hasn't it?" :P Sometimes it's just easier to hide how I really feel. :P
But on to other (happier) topics because I don't want to constantly be-labor the Father's Day issue - Mark & I went to Borders this afternoon and I picked up a few books on *GASP* Flash. :P Yes, I've officially gone over to the "dark side" and have been trying to create a small Flash animation file for Kevin's site. :P Not sure if I'll ever use it, but it's been a good distraction to try to create it this weekend. :)
After Borders, Mark & I went to Genki to eat some really yummy sushi. :) Not only did I eat the best vegetable croquette there, but I finished off my dinner with chocolate mochi ice cream. :) I love mochi ice cream to begin with, but chocolate mochi ice cream is just pure heaven! And I've decided - since it's been a pretty busy day, I've chosen to feel guilty about breaking my diet tomorrow... ;)
And on a Kevin note, I'm still looking for people to see Kevin in "Guys & Dolls" with me on the 16th or 17th of July at Cal State Long Beach - anyone interested? (Hint, hint careleswhisper, karmastyx, cahwyguy, etc. ;)
Hope you all have a nice evening - I'm off to catch up on all of your journals (I know I'm WAY behind!) :P *HUGS* to all of you!