December 12th, 2007


I'm terrified of public speaking!

Sounds pretty silly for someone who does what I do for a living, don't you think? :P Well, BIG boss was supposed to do a HUGE banker training for the island of Kauai tomorrow evening and... he's feeling under the weather so he's sending me instead! :P It's a 30 minute speech on Retirement Life Cycle Planning and there with me will be the department heads of the other divisions of the bank who will each be speaking as well... talk about intimidating!!

To add to things, I just received BIG boss' script and I'm not comfortable at all speaking his words! It's going to be a disaster tomorrow - I just know it. I fear public speaking to begin with, but add to that trying to say someone else's words and having a room full of VERY intimidating audience members and it's almost ridiculous how much I DON'T want to do this.

Because the training is so late in the evening, and there are no flights back home that late, I'm going to have to stay overnight in Kauai and fly back early the next morning to make it in to the office in time for my morning meeting on Friday... More fun! :P

I know I shouldn't be complaining at all because I have a wonderful job and I love the people I work with, but public speaking is REALLY not my thing - REALLY and I will do it, because I have to and I will try my best, but as I told BIG boss, that's all I can promise him. :P

He tried several times to give me the "silver lining" speech ("It's a great opportunity for you and a great learning experience...") but I refuse to see it as a positive... ;) I just hope I make it through the day without a) fainting, b) puking, or c) making a fool out of myself. Sadly, I think at least one of these is inevitable. :P

I'm off to pack my overnight bag... *sigh*
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