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06 May 2003 @ 09:47 pm
I'm guessing...  
...that skipping Curves on Monday was a bad idea. :( I did go today, but basically sucked wind the entire time! And now I'm paying for it in the leg pain department. :( I'm dreading the weigh and measure thing tomorrow ENORMOUSLY - how embarrassing would it be if they saw me working out there every day and I actually gained inches instead of lost them? :( UGH...

Wanted to apologize for my little rant about work earlier - sometimes I get frustrated because I don't enjoy my job the way I should... I feel like I've wasted my parents' money by getting a degree in something I will presumably never use and I feel creatively stifled at my current job. (Creativity is not really an asset at the bank...in fact, in some cases it's HIGHLY discouraged) ;) But at the risk of this turning into another rant, I'll just say that every once in a while an overwhelming "I want a new job" feeling comes over me and I guess that might explain a little about how I was feeling today.

Non-work related: My Mom's camera is on the fritz. :( She just discovered it as she was packing for the trip last night. Unfortunately, I don't have a small point and shoot anymore that she can use (my old one broke a long time ago) and I think it may be easier for her to buy a new one than to teach her how to use my Canon... I adore my Mom, but explaining technical gadgets to her always gives me somewhat of a headache. :)
Current Mood: blahblah
Care: pooh happenscareleswhisper on May 7th, 2003 03:01 am (UTC)
Don't worry so much about what other people think about you at Curves. If you're happy w/yourself, that's all that matters. :)

No worries about what you call a "job rant." It's your journal, you write what you want. :) I honestly didn't see a rant. ;) Anyway...we all need to rant every once in a while and what better place to do so? :) *hugs*
Sherishutterbug93 on May 7th, 2003 09:18 am (UTC)
Thanks Carrie -
I've actually been feeling much better this morning about the whole Curves "weigh" thing and even my job. :) Thanks for listening to my rant, though. ;) Please take care of that throat of yours and I hope you have a nice day and hopefully get to see Roger? :)
Adam: Satinebeantownboy on May 7th, 2003 05:17 pm (UTC)

Granted you've probably heard and/or pondered this yourself an infinite amount of times, but I really think you should find a job where you can immerse yourself in photography. I guess I understand that you have a decent job that is safe and all, but in the end, if you weren't happy, what was the sum total of your life? A person spends way more than half of their lifetime at their job; if you aren't happy at it, if you aren't utilizing your passion, that's a lot of lifetime to waste. I'm not suggesting you just up and quit your job at the bank (although that would certainly be an adventure in and of itself...), but why not start perusing around for a job that is something you would actually love to do? Just my two cents. :o)
Sheri: Side Showshutterbug93 on May 7th, 2003 09:36 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much, Adam! *HUGS*
What you've said makes total and complete sense. :) And every once in a while I do get in moods where I look at the classifieds in the paper or see how much it would take to open my own business, but then the suckiness of reality hits me and I look at bills that are due and the mortgage that we need to pay on the house and I give up before I even start... Fact of the matter is that I'm scared - plain and simple. I don't like my job, but I'll admit that it's a job that pays pretty well. I DO agree with you that if I stay at my current job, years from now I'll just see a bunch of regret and maybe that's what I should be thinking about the next time I feel this way. The unfortunate part to this whole thing is that Hawaii is not exactly the mecca of the art (or theatre) world - which makes photography jobs that much harder to come by.

I totally appreciate your comments about this. :) I've had to do a lot of soul searching recently and kind and insightful opinions like yours have helped me sort a lot of things out. :) *BIG HUGS*
irisheyes77 on May 7th, 2003 06:51 pm (UTC)
I feel the same way about work sometimes, too. I love my job and it is what I went to school for, but sometimes I feel like my talents are being wasted there because it's a really small town library. Not to make myself sound like I think I'm all great or something, but I mean that I don't get to do a lot of the stuff that I would get to in a big library.
Sherishutterbug93 on May 7th, 2003 09:47 pm (UTC)

I understand you completely! :) And I'm so glad to hear that you love what you do. :) And really, though I've been ranting the past couple of days (I think I'm just due for a vacation ;)) I really do enjoy the people I work with.

I didn't know you worked in a library. :) My Mom was an elementary school librarian and she loved her job more than anything. :) She retired about 5 years ago, but she still spends a lot of her free time at the public library.
irisheyes77 on May 8th, 2003 07:19 am (UTC)
Yeah, I'm the Assistant Director of a library, but really that's just a glorified way of saying that I'm both the Children's Librarian and the Cataloger!

That is neat that your Mom was an elementary school librarian! It is a fun job. :)
terramera on May 7th, 2003 10:54 pm (UTC)
I know exactly how you feel.

There seems to be two roads. Working and being able to pay the bills, living comfortably, being physically happy- but your spirit pays the price. Or doing something you love, but possibly not being able to pay the bills, but at least your doing something that makes your soul happy.

My boyfriend is in a similar situation. He's an Electrical Engineer but, totally quit this field and is trying to start his own photography business. Sometimes we struggle to pay the bills, we can't afford a lot of things but it's worth it to see how happy he is. It's so scary sometimes though.

Anyways, why don't you try to slowly get back into it? Maybe on your days off you can start taking pictures, start off as a hobby and have fun first, then work on a portfolio. I would also suggest getting a digital camera and carrying it everywhere with you. It helps me out alot because it's immediate, I can see my composition right away and it's a lot cheaper than processing film all the time. =)

Sherishutterbug93 on May 8th, 2003 06:01 am (UTC)
*Hugs* and double *hugs* to you...
...and your boyfriend. :) Glad to hear that he's living out his dream. :) And I must say that I completely admire him for taking such a huge step. :)

I know that I have to get back out there and start taking photos again. :) Actually seeing your photos and the photos of other LJ friends has made me realize that I really do miss it. Sometimes I get caught up in my day to day living and I rationalize things in my head and I tend to think, "My job's not THAT bad - at least it pays well, etc. etc." And I'll go for stretches of time and not think about wanting something else for months. Then there are other times when I seriously think about getting out... I guess I've been in that mood lately. :P

Carrying a camera with me at all times is a wonderful suggestion :) - though quite honestly, I haven't been able to get into digital cameras... I think it's just that I'm stubborn at times and very old fashioned. Though I should look into it more since, you're right, it certainly does save on processing fees. :)

Thanks so much for your comments :). It is nice to know that others feel the same way and some have even taken the chance. :) I still have a bit of things to sort through in my own mind about all of this, and I really appreciate you sharing your own experiences about the situation. *HUGS*