pensiveSlowly, as the years went on I immersed myself in various things that kept me busy. I began traveling and seeing shows and creating websites... all things that kept me happy and fulfilled in my non-working hours. Shockingly enough, one day I woke up and it occurred to me that I think I might actually be okay with the idea of NOT having children... VERY shocking for me since it's all I ever thought about for my future and really scary in a way. I know deep down inside that things that I've gotten into recently - like my web design business - would have to be put on the side if we ever decided to start a family. And I'll be quite honest when I say that I'm not sure I'm willing to give that up...
Susan and I talked about all that today and how, almost 10 years ago when we first met how we never thought our lives would've turned out the way they did. Not that I'm complaining at all, because I've been blessed in more ways that I could ever imagine... but it is a lot different than I had expected.
And who knows? People are having children later and later in life these days... My story isn't completely over yet, there's still a chance that one day Mark & I will change our tune... but for now I think I'm content the way things are and for now, my fuzzy baby is enough for me.