Log in

No account? Create an account
16 June 2007 @ 06:28 pm
Now that I got that off my chest...  
...I apologize to everyone for my earlier rant... :(

Edited: Took down my earlier rant - it was childish and stupid in light of everything going on...

A little Sydney update...

Sydney is still not doing well... after a little over a week, she can't stand or really move around - she has made improvements and can sit up for prolonged periods of time, but we wonder if this is the best that she's going to get. :( She's been lethargic and disinterested in things recently so I decided to put all of her stuffed toys around her, and surprisingly she perked up a bit, and even tried to play with them. I'm thinking that's a good sign, right?

Still it's VERY hard to see her so immobile... :( She looks as though she wants to move and because she still wants to play with her toys and wants to get up and follow us, we know that she's still HERSELF... she just can't seem to get enough balance to stand... We're beginning to wonder if she ever will... :(

Tomorrow I'm working again at the 50th State Fair for my class and though I love it, it also gives me a lot of stress at the same time. I feel somehow shy communicating with others outside of my class and I know it's something I totally have to get over - but I always have this nagging fear that I'll sign something totally wrong and offend someone without knowing it... :(

And though I've been trying not to think about it, to all the Fathers on my friends' list - please have a nice day tomorrow!! My apologies again for the earlier immature rant... I hope you're all having a nice weekend. Big HUGS to all of you!
Current Mood: blankblank
waytoocoolrevwaytoocoolrev on June 17th, 2007 04:46 am (UTC)
I'm so sorry about Sydney; I know this must be so hard for you and I surely hope she improves. The vet did say it could take a bit of time though, right?

Rant: You've got to tell her she can't post your picture without crediting you! Or not to post it at all. You don't have to be shy!

"Speaking": LOL! I'm sure you may well sign something totally wrong, but I expect that's nothing new! Anyone who's new at a language makes mistakes, and those who are fluent aren't usually surprised. I'm sure most of the folks you talk to will appreciate your effort, and I know all the nice people will understand if you make a mistake! You know you just need to relax and enjoy - and take advantage of the great learning opportunity!

Fathers: I don't know your story, but it's kind of you to wish the fathers on your list well. Maybe we can wish the surrogate fathers well too: the men - and women - who take the place of fathers for people who need them.
Sheri: Sydney - couchshutterbug93 on June 17th, 2007 05:09 am (UTC)
The vet said that it could take anywhere from 3-5 days to 3-5 weeks! :( It's been a little over a week and though she seems slightly better each day, there's always a nagging bit of fear in us that this is the best that she'll actually get... :(

Working at the fair is a great learning opportunity and I love the interaction that it provides. You're completely right about everyone being patient and nice about things, especially since they know I'm a student, but I still worry and would hate to unknowingly offend someone.

Thanks for your comments! Long story-short about Father's Day, it's a pretty hard day for me -- my Dad passed away when I was 21, but because I was away and didn't get to see him before he passed away, I feel a little cheated - like I never got to say goodbye and it somehow his absence hasn't gotten any easier for me deal with - and it's been over 15 years! I really don't do Father's Day too well...
Daniel the California Highway Guy: father-and-soncahwyguy on June 17th, 2007 05:15 am (UTC)
Speaking as someone who lost a dad two years ago:

(1) The goodbye is for you, not him. So say goodbye wherever you feel his spirit still.

(2) Remember your father is always with you, in your heart and in the little things and quirks you picked up from him.

(3) Knowing you as I do today, and speaking as a father, I think he would be very proud of what his daughter turned into: a person who cares about others and the world, who appreciates the arts, who loves her family.

As you go into the world and do good, you do your dad proud. So, I'm sure whereever he is on father's day, he's looking at you, and is very proud of his little girl.
Sheri: Sheri - yahoo iconshutterbug93 on June 17th, 2007 05:20 am (UTC)
Oh wow... your comment made me teary Daniel. And speechless (and for me, that's hard to do) ;) Thank you... just thank you for being a great friend to me! HUGS!
waytoocoolrevwaytoocoolrev on June 17th, 2007 05:30 am (UTC)
It sounds like your Dad was very important to you. Your friend wrote some good advice; I'll add another observation if I may. Many people wish they could have done something differently when a loved one dies. They wish they'd been there; they wish they'd made better care decisions; they wish they hadn't had an argument the day before. Those last days loom so importantly in our minds.

The truth is that your relationship was about all the days and weeks and months and years that you knew him, not about whether you were there when he died. What a blessing that you had a Dad you wish you could have seen once more before he passed on. I know 21 years wasn't enough, but I hope you'll be able to give thanks for those years without distress some day.

And perhaps you can look forward to saying "hello" to him again one day too, if you can imagine such a possibility.

Blessings on you both.
Sheri: Sydney - couchshutterbug93 on June 17th, 2007 05:39 am (UTC)
Thanks so much for your comments!! Gee, I'm a mess today, I'm tearing up at everything... I know that we've only known each other for a little while here on LJ, but I really wanted to thank you for all your support - you've been wonderful. HUGS!
(Deleted comment)
Sheri: Sydney - couchshutterbug93 on June 17th, 2007 05:10 am (UTC)
Thanks so much, Angela!! Mark and I are so sad whenever we see her. We can still see her strong will, but she can't get up and seems so frustrated by it... We'll have to see if she improves next week... It's so heartbreaking to see her like this! :(
Kyliekyliebeth on June 17th, 2007 04:51 am (UTC)
(((((hugs))))) I hope Sydney continues to improve. That's definitely good that she's showing interest in her toys, but so sad at the same time. Poor sweet puppy.

I take it you're taking a sign language class? Good luck at the fair tomorrow, sign language is something I've always wanted to learn. But at this point my 4-year-old knows more than I do just from watching Sesame Street. :)
Sheri: Sydney - couchshutterbug93 on June 17th, 2007 05:26 am (UTC)
Thanks so much for your comment! We're hoping for the best - one website said that it could take up to 3 weeks for the vertigo to go away... :( We're just hoping that she continues to get better. :(

And I am taking a sign language class... at KCC. :) They have an excellent ASL/Interpreter program offered at night. :)

Edited so many times because my brain is fried and what I was writing wasn't even English...:P
kathyselden on June 17th, 2007 04:54 am (UTC)
Sheri, I am so sorry that things are so hard right now, with Syd sick and Father's Day coming up. I wish I had some words of encouragement for you, but I don't so ... just know I'm praying for you and all involved.
Sheri: Sydney is...shutterbug93 on June 17th, 2007 05:14 am (UTC)
Thank you SO much, Ashley!! You've been a wonderful support through all of this and I can't thank you enough for your prayers!! Big HUGS and much love to you!!
I'm so cool too bad I'm a loser: (little miss sunshine) hugaudienceawaits on June 17th, 2007 05:28 am (UTC)
I know I haven't been around on LJ much, but I've been reading your updates on Sydney and I'm just so sorry, Sheri. But don't lose hope - dogs are so amazing! I know our baby is gone now, but she started having problems so many years before that and she always managed to pull through. I'm thinking loads and loads of good thoughts to send your way - I really, really hope she starts to get much better soon. I know how much she means to you both and I know how hard this must be on both of you. It's SO hard to see you dog like that.. you just feel so helpless. <3<3<3
Sheri: Sydney - couchshutterbug93 on June 17th, 2007 05:33 am (UTC)
Gill, thank you SOOOO MUCH for your comment!! I miss you and Karen so so much! :( Thank you for all your encouraging words for Sydney! It's so heartbreaking for us to watch her struggle the way she does. :( Each day she seems to get a tiny bit better... so we are trying to be optimistic, but it's so hard. Thank you SO MUCH again for all your good thoughts for her!! Big HUGS and much love to you!!
bigrivermusicalbigrivermusical on June 17th, 2007 05:34 am (UTC)
It must be tearing your heart to see Sydney's conditon :( ***HUGS*** Is it because she is getting older? Or is it common for an old shelty? She must be very scared herself too. I just keep praying for her. She'll turn around soon!!
Sheri: Sydney is...shutterbug93 on June 17th, 2007 05:41 am (UTC)
Thanks so much for your comment!! It's so heartbreaking to see Sydney so helpless like that! :( And from what the vet has said, this vertigo thing is not uncommon in older dogs. Most get better within the week, though so I'm a bit nervous about her condition. :( Thanks SO MUCH for all your prayers for her!! They mean so much to us!! Big HUGS!
karmastyxkarmastyx on June 17th, 2007 10:02 am (UTC)
It really hurts my heart to read about Sydney wanting to do things, and not being able to. Poor baby girl! :(

You know seriously, people are always new to a language. I wouldn't be so hard on yourself. HUGS!

I know this is one of the hard times of the year for you. I wish I could say more to help ease your pain. I honestly can say, your dad did a wonderful job, and still continues to in spirit, because you are such a kind and helpful person. You give your heart to others, and never ask for anything in return. I know your dad sees that, and is so very proud of you. BIG HUGS!
Sheri: Sydney - couchshutterbug93 on June 18th, 2007 05:42 am (UTC)
Thank you SO MUCh for your comments, Laura!! :) We feel so sad when we see Sydney struggling the way she does. :(

And you're right about the language issue... :) I had SUCH fun today at the 50th State fair!! :D Even got to take a few pictures (and posted them in my lastest entry) I'm so sad that today was the last day of the fair... :(

And thanks for your sweet, SWEET comments about my Dad. It's really hard this time of year for me, but I think working and volunteering at the fair helped. I was able to not think about it so much... :P

Big HUGS and much love to you, Laura!!
anna, bright and dark: bad dogglitterandfade on June 17th, 2007 03:43 pm (UTC)
Poor darling !

My little girl, on top of her ACL woes, just had to have another lump removed from underneath her tail where her cancer was ...

Good thing Shelties are fighters !

I'll be thinking about you guys ...
Sheri: Sydney - couchshutterbug93 on June 18th, 2007 05:44 am (UTC)
Oh no!! I'm SOOO sorry to hear about your baby too! Poor thing!! They go through so much!! :( Hope she's doing okay!! :(

And you're definitely right that Shelties are fighters!!

Thanks for your good thoughts for Sydney and I will keep your baby in my thoughts and prayers as well.
Όμορφη καρδιάqueenstacey_25 on June 17th, 2007 07:09 pm (UTC)
Take her to the vet and see what's up. They need to be ontop of this and constantly checking in with you......

HUGS for you and the fuzzy dog! You are in my prayers.
Sheri: Sydney - couchshutterbug93 on June 18th, 2007 05:45 am (UTC)
Thanks so much for your prayers, Stacey!! We are taking her into the vet on Wednesday - they can't fit her in before that. They seem to think it might be a bad ear infection - which we're hoping for. Worse case it could be a lesion of some sort on her brain. :(