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28 August 2007 @ 05:07 am
I can't believe...  
...that tomorrow will have been a week since we lost Sydney. :( Yesterday we received a beautiful sympathy card from our vet, which was really nice - but heartbreaking to read as well. There is a part of us that just feels extremely lucky for all the years we spent with her after she was sick the first time (when she was six) because we really feel like it was extra borrowed time (since no one expected her to pull through back then) - but, of course, there is a part of us that still wishes she could've lived forever... :(

Work helps - as does keeping busy with my websites... And this weekend I'm off to Sacramento to see Bets in 1776 at Music Circus so that will be a nice distraction as well.

And Mark & I were talking the other night... And I know that I said once that I'd never get another dog once Sydney was gone - because my attachment to Sydney was so strong that I couldn't even imagine owning another dog... But my thoughts on that have changed somewhat in light of the recent events. Not that we're ready for a new puppy at the moment, or that what we'd be doing would be replacing Sydney at all, but I think I'm actually finally open to the idea of possibly giving another dog a home with us one day... I think I finally understand that though another dog will never replace Sydney, we do have enough love in our hearts to take in a new dog one day and love him or her the way we loved Sydney - without ever forgetting about her...

Hope all of you have been well. Mark & I appreciate all your kind words and messages - it has certainly helped us get through this past week. Big HUGS to you all!
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Sheri: Familyshutterbug93 on August 29th, 2007 08:23 am (UTC)
And I got teary eyed reading your comment, Sue! Mark & I are certainly not ready for another fuzzy baby at the moment, but we do know that when the time is right we will be able to give him / her all the love we can without ever forgetting Sydney. Big HUGS to you!
waytoocoolrev: flowerbackwaytoocoolrev on August 28th, 2007 09:57 pm (UTC)
I think I'm actually finally open to the idea of possibly giving another dog a home with us one day... I think I finally understand that though another dog will never replace Sydney, we do have enough love in our hearts to take in a new dog one day and love him or her

I think you are absolutely right. You have a lot of love to give and can provide such a good home for a new pet one day - when you're ready it will be a wonderful thing for you, Mark, and your new baby.
Sheri: Familyshutterbug93 on August 29th, 2007 08:26 am (UTC)
Thank you for your sweet comment! Mark & I both agreed that we'll be able to tell when the time is right - and we also both agreed that it probably won't be anytime soon. Thanks for your comment - big HUGS to you!
Sabine: Mickisabine10 on August 28th, 2007 10:45 pm (UTC)
I understand how you are feeling and yes, I too miss Sydney.

I remember what you once said about getting another dog after Sydney had to go and I thought about them more often. But, when I got Micki it did not mean that I replaced Lauser, he always will have his place in my heart. And it's right what suetrys wrote that another dog helps heal the pain. Micki helped me a lot. I love her in her own way and it makes me happy to feel her love and trust. I think that you and Mark have a lot of love in your hearts and I'm sure that, if you decide to get another dog, you will love her or him.

You are in my thoughts. Big hugs back to you!
Sheri: Familyshutterbug93 on August 29th, 2007 08:32 am (UTC)
Thanks for your comment, Sabine.

I remember when I made that comment when Sydney was ill and then a few years later when you brought Micki home we discussed it again. I hope I didn't make it sound as though I didn't believe that ANY person whose dog passed away shouldn't get another one - I certainly believe (even then) that everyone is different and has different ways of handling grief... At the time, it was only something that I had thought would be true for myself. Now, though having been through Sydney's loss and knowing that we are able to one day love another dog, but never forget Sydney, I see things (for me) a little differently.

Thanks for your comment, Sabine - big HUGS to you!
Daniel the California Highway Guycahwyguy on August 29th, 2007 12:41 am (UTC)
Think about it this way: You're a dog person and love dogs. I think Sydney would want you to continue loving dogs, and to keep sharing that love and caring, just as you cared for her.
Sheri: Sheri - yahoo iconshutterbug93 on August 29th, 2007 08:33 am (UTC)
I certainly do love dogs - Mark can attest to that... Whenever I'm riding in the car with him I have to oooooh and ahhhhh over all the cute dogs being walked by their owners. :)
Dawnhobbes1969 on August 29th, 2007 12:50 am (UTC)
Oh my GOSH, I am so sorry. *hugs* I obviously don't log in much these days.....I am so sorry to read about your loss. :(
Sheri: Sydney is...shutterbug93 on August 29th, 2007 08:35 am (UTC)
Thank you so much, Dawn! We're really thankful to have had ten wonderful years with her. HUGS!
Debsb186 on August 29th, 2007 04:03 am (UTC)
Sheri.. you will never replace Sydney, but you can definitely love another dog when you guys are ready.

When I was a kid, we had a sheltie named Lady. She was my best friend, confident, and buddy as I was going through those up and down teen years. When I was in grade 11, we had to have her put down at the age of 7 due to cancer. When I met Mike, he would always notice that no matter where we were, I would get teary when I would see a sheltie. When we got married, he bought Sunny for me as his wedding gift to me, as he said he couldn't imagine a better gift. And, though Sunny is my darling furball baby now, I still love and think of Lady and we have photos of her up in our house.

You'll never forget Sydney, but you guys have lots of love for another furball. :)
Sheri: Familyshutterbug93 on August 29th, 2007 08:39 am (UTC)
Oh, I'm so sorry to hear about Lady. :( It's so hard to lose such a cherished childhood friend... I can understand your feelings about tearing up whenever you saw a Sheltie. How nice that Mike bought Sunny for you as a wedding gift!

I know that no matter what happens in our lives, we will always love and remember Sydney because she was such a HUGE part of our family. And I know we aren't ready yet, and we may not be for some time, but when we are ready to give another fuzzy puppy a home, I think we'll both know it. :)

Big HUGS to you!
karmastyxkarmastyx on August 30th, 2007 01:29 am (UTC)
Oh man, it's a week? I just can't even imagine how it must feel. I'm glad you are able to remember the great years you had.

When the time is right, a new puppy would be lovely! If you need to talk, I can try and be around. HUGS! Love ya!
Sheri: Sydney & Sherishutterbug93 on August 30th, 2007 02:27 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Laura!
Sputters and Spurts: Mood: Sad Doll eyeswallacebear on August 30th, 2007 03:00 pm (UTC)
Oh Sheri, I am so sorry about Sydney. I always loved to read your posts about her since we share a love of dogs. I am so very sorry.

We lost Aubrey with no warning on July 26th. Since then we've been escaping the lonely house every weekend. He really was an equal partner in our family and we miss him terribly. My sister told me something that has become my mantra: "You will never get used to it but you will learn to live with it."

I was hoping to log on to LJ (after avoiding it for a while) and find good news. Alas, it wasn't meant to be. I am so sorry for you and Mark.
Sheri: Sydney is...shutterbug93 on August 30th, 2007 03:12 pm (UTC)
Re: :(
Oh my!! I'm so sorry to hear about Aubrey as well! :( I do believe that it will get easier with time - Sydney was such a big part of our family and our lives that without her, the house feels so empty. :(

Thank you so much for your sweet comments. Everyone here on LJ (and on MySpace) have been so wonderful about everything. Big HUGS to you!!