Sheri (shutterbug93) wrote,

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Been doing a lot of soul-searching lately...

...since last week Friday and the sudden realization that my job means VERY little in the grand scheme of things. :P In that vein, I tried to go online to register for my night school classes - which begins a new session in January - but, my class (ASL 2B) isn't being offered this term. :P

I knew I shouldn't have taken the class break that I did, and now I feel like I'm not on track anymore. There's no non-credit class available and the only credit course that's available that I can possibly get to (and not have to quit my job) this semester is ASL 202 - which I don't think they'd let me take (although I'm going to call the registrar's office on Monday to ask). So, I'm stuck this term / semester without a class. :P

And since it's been a while since I've taken my class, I know that I need more interaction or I'll just forget everything I've learned... It's hard for me because I tend to be a little shy when it comes to signing to people I don't know. I know I have to get over this eventually, but right now, I'm a little stuck where I want to interact with people to expand my knowledge, but I don't know where to find people to interact with and I'm a little shy about it when I do find those situations... :P

And speaking of cross-roads in my life, on a COMPLETELY different note, I'm sort of at a turning point with the whole traveling to see Kevin perform thing... I think I may have outgrown that, if that makes any sense at all. This entire year, all my theatre travels were to see people other than Kevin - if I saw a show of his, it had more to do with the fact that he was cast in something that happened to be playing while I was in town seeing other people...

True, I did go to see "Sleeping Beauty Wakes" because of him, but what I ended up getting out of it was so much more... It introduced me to Groovelily (the amazing and talented Brendan and Valarie) and the incredibly talented Russell Harvard, and most importantly, got me re-interested in ASL again after many, many years. And if I didn't meet Russell there, I never would've done a website for him and then I never would've met Anthony (who contacted me after seeing the work I did on Russell's site...) So, I do have a lot to be thankful to Kevin for.

But the whole, me traveling to see Kevin perform thing I think is pretty much over... which is kind of sad in a way - like the closing of a chapter in my life. I will still maintain his website and see him if he's performing when I happen to be in town, but the need to travel specifically to see his shows has somewhat ended (I think). And because it's been so long (7 years now) it's VERY strange to not be defined by him anymore... :P

He was the one, after all, who introduced me to everyone that I know - from Nick, Julie, and Misty (from the Side Show days) to Bets, Steve, Kristi... everyone! Because of that, I will always be thankful to Kevin. Don't know exactly what I'm saying here, but I think things have changed for me, in the way I'm viewing the theatre traveling these days...

I think the above is what happens when I have an entire weekend to myself at home, with no place specific to go... I end up over-analyzing things... The Kevin-thing is strange, but I've been feeling it for a while now. The not having a class and needing interaction thing I really need to find a solution for... If anyone can offer any advice in that respect, I'd be so grateful!!

I'm off to catch up on all of your entries, play Scrabble, and NOT think about any of this...
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