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03 November 2003 @ 10:10 pm
No news is good news.  
Today I came home from work a little too late to make it to Sydney's vet appointment. So I had about 45 minutes to myself, alone in the house while Mark took Sydney to her appointment. The house felt weird and empty - I've never been in the house when Sydney wasn't there. Part of me wonders if the empty feeling will ever go away once she's gone. :(

No further news from the vet (A.K.A. Dr. Gloom & Doom - Don't get me wrong, I adore her, but still I ask, is a little positivity too much to ask for?). Sydney seems to be doing about the same (which in its own way is a good thing - at least she's not worse). The only bad thing is that she's lost another pound. :( Over the last two and a half weeks, she's lost a total of three and a half pounds. :( In fact, she's lost so much weight that the vet lowered the dosage on her medication because her previous dosage was too high for her current weight. :(

And because my posts have been getting progressively more depressing...

A little bright spot this past weekend was receiving a wonderful care package from one of my theatre friends on Saturday. She gave me a gift I could only have dreamed of and I'm SO thankful to her for making me smile. I've been listening to it non-stop for the past two days. It's brought back some incredible theatre memories and has made me remember the feeling I had hearing Kevin sing for the very first time. I have the most wonderful friends!

I also have to thank you all for your comments in my last post. With so many people in my everyday life who don't understand what we're going through, it really amazes me that I've found such a wonderful, caring group of friends who are truly able to understand exactly what Sydney means to us. *HUGS* to all of you.
WE ALL NEED A SENSE OF HUMORbeam861 on November 4th, 2003 05:30 am (UTC)
Glad you had a bright spot to your day! We all need those once in a while!! As far as the empty feel, it takes a while, and it will leave. I have lost several pets in the past. The best thing to do
when she does leave is to look at her pics, and have a good cry. Then wait a little while, and adopt another pet. While it won't be
Sydney, it will still be someone else to love!
irisheyes77 on November 4th, 2003 07:53 am (UTC)
I agree with Barbara here. When Sydney does go, don't rush right out and get another pet. Give yourself time to mourn her properly, then extend your love to another animal.

I still think about animals that we had that died when I was little from time to time. As time goes on, the grief part really does go away and you remember all of the cute things that they did instead.

Sherishutterbug93 on November 4th, 2003 08:24 am (UTC)
Thanks, Amanda - your comment was beautiful. I think you're right - I'm probably just going to need some time. Please take care of yourself and thanks again for all your words of encouragement. Big *HUGS* to you and your family.
Sherishutterbug93 on November 4th, 2003 07:56 am (UTC)
Thanks so much for your comment, Barb. We brought Sydney home just after we bought our house and I guess without her, the house just won't seem right. And Mark has always wanted to get another dog after Sydney, but I'm not sure that I'll ever be able to adopt another pet. I can't say for sure, but that's how I feel right now.
WE ALL NEED A SENSE OF HUMOR: flying snoopybeam861 on November 4th, 2003 11:13 am (UTC)
I can remember feeling that same way after loosing other pets. In time your feelings may change. It would be a shame, not to share all the love you have with another pet. When we lost the dog we had
before Mort, I swore up and down that I would not have another dog
Well, you see what happened there. I seen him at the pet store and
it was love at first site, that and he was getting older, and they were going to put him down if no one adopted him soon (he was 6 months) (he is a little on the large side for a Sheltie, so he is
not "Show dog quality) What a waste it would have been to put that dog down, and I can't imagine my life w/o my 3rd kid. He's the kid
that won't go off to college! lol. The point is, it's too soon now
to make that kind of decision. When your pet dies, it is like a
piece of you goes with them, and you really don't ever want to hurt
like that again, but then think of all the love, companionship, and
joy you would miss out on. Think of the nice home your future pet
would miss out on. Like I said before, just take some time. Maybe
a different breed of dog, or a different pet? BIG HUGS to you again!!!
Mrs Beanshuman_beans on November 4th, 2003 12:03 pm (UTC)
I remember that feeling too. My cat, Teapot, had died and I was crushed. We had brought Teapot back from Germany where we had adopted her from a shelter there. She got her name from my son who at such a young age at the time couldn't say Kitty Cat too well and out came Teapot. She had been in our family for about 4 years when she died. I went to the local shelter 'just to look'. They brought out Natasha who was an older absolutely beautiful RagDoll. They told me she was going to be put down that evening because nobody seemed to want an older cat like her. Natasha sat on the little table in front of me and I looked down at her just torn on whether I was ready for another cat. Natasha stood on her back legs, put her front paws on each of my shoulders and kissed my cheek. Natasha went home with me.
WE ALL NEED A SENSE OF HUMORbeam861 on November 5th, 2003 06:00 am (UTC)
I seem to keep on running into you! We seem to think the same way!
May I add you to my friends list??? Barb
Mrs Beanshuman_beans on November 5th, 2003 06:54 am (UTC)
Yes! I had noticed you before too and had taken a peek at your LJ & thought "what a neat lady!"

We're the same age too. Well, ok, technically I'm a few months older than you.
Care: hugscareleswhisper on November 4th, 2003 07:56 am (UTC)
Sherishutterbug93 on November 4th, 2003 08:25 am (UTC)
Thanks Carrie. *HUGS* to you too. Hope all is well with you, I miss seeing your entries on my friends' page. :(
orion74 on November 4th, 2003 08:16 pm (UTC)
We're keeping our fingers crossed for Sydney! I know that this a very hard thing for you and Mark to go through, but remember that us LJ friends are here for you.
Sherishutterbug93 on November 5th, 2003 12:46 am (UTC)
Thank you so much, Tom. You and Amanda remind me of the Yorkshire owner I met at the vet the other week - you're both so sweet to care so much about others in your time of worry. Please take care of yourselves. *HUGS* to you both!
orion74 on November 5th, 2003 09:46 am (UTC)
That is really sweet of you!! It's a shame we live so far away, we'd really love to meet you and Mark someday! :)