Just found out that Chad got a Daytime Emmy nomination. Although I'm happy for him and all my friends who will be there cheering for him on May 16th - my joy isn't one that I expected. It's a joy of someone on the outside - looking in... I feel so far removed from it. I won't deny that I met most of my closest friends through my encounters with Chad or that if it hadn't been for him, I never would've met Kevin - I do owe a lot to him, but it's changed for me somehow.